...yep, just deleted this entire entry!!!

Anyways, I head home in 5 days and I can't wait to pack up and get the hell outta here. I think I deserve a break so much more than I ever had the whole time I've been here.  This semester has been especially hard.  I had one final at 8am this morning and that went good I think except I was STARVING!  damn cafe in the library being closed.  I have my 17 page Bob Marley paper due by 4pm this afternoon, a final at 4:30 tomorrow, and 2 five page papers due by Friday. 

With as much as I told mom I didn't need a Christmas tree this year I think she's still going to get one on our way home Saturday.  Because she just repainted and re carpeted the whole house I think she wants it to look really good.  It's going to be like going home to a brand new home...I haven't seen it since it was finished so I'm pretty excited. 

It's been a pretty rough couple of weeks and I feel like nobody understands me.  On the inside I feel like it's about that time for me to give up...but since when do I give up...I don't think i even understand me...

Well, I really want to get all of my work and studying finished today so that i can lay in my bed all week being a lazy bum so I'm gonna get going.

I'll try to post again once i get home next week.  Good luck with the rest of the semester and with finals!!

Happy Holidays, ma!
Hope you're getting that well deserved break. I think it's so interesting how just wishing you could quit feels just as good as quiting. Kinda like a break before you suck it all in and keep plowing through everything. I dunno- maybe it's just me. Later, babes!