So I'm writing now to escape studying for my midterm that I have tomorrow.  Today didn't seem to have enough hours in the day, and this is how I am compensating for lacking time. 

Things have been great, and not so great.  I went to San Francisco, and that was the most fun I've had since I've been back to school and I wish I was still there.  At least there I had things to look forward to.  I went to a lot of interesting sessions that I hope can help me out here but if they don't now, they will in the long run. I also saw a lot of great, pretty famous sites and I have recently started looking at grad schools there.  It seems to be turning out that I have nothing to stay here for- so why not try to go there.

My RA life is great...and yet it sucks.  My girls are fabulous, I've had my first serious problem, that got blown out of proportion, that is fixed-but not...and I will pretend it is for the sake of having peace in my hall for the time being.  My staff seems to believe that I have issues with them, that I don't like to do staff things, and that I'm a big, waste of angry RA.  Wow....I had three consecutive bad days last week, and no others this whole semester- but it had to be addressed mob style at last nights staff mtg. Yep, nothing like making me frustrated with them and creating an awkward situation.  Because  everyone has such a shitty image of me I can't put any of my feelings into away messages or anything...so there's no point in being online...goodbye AIM for the time being.  To make things better I think all of the crappy RA stuff this year has lead to me being pulled from freshman and tossed with transfers in the crappiest dorm on campus...but before we jump to that conclusion we can wait for it to be permanent. 

I have a midterm tomorrow, and I have no time for last minute studying tomorrow.  I have a meeting in the morning, class, a meeting a few minutes to study, then my midterm.  I can't wait for tomorrow to be over....it'll be one day closer to Spring break- one day closer to going home.

I've given up on guys for the semester.  I seem to have found guys that are already dating, not good enough, and more often than not just don't care about me and can't commit to spending time with me.  If I only have one more year here, why am I waiting around for someone that could care less about me?  I'm not.  I'm done.

time to study. 

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